i’m in love you guys….
Today was probably one of the hardest days I’ve ever gone through. I always knew I’d have to say goodbye to people when “that day came” but never did I think it’d be you or like this or this soon. You don’t deserve this. No one does. Your family doesn’t deserve this. I’m not blood, but we’re still family and I truthfully can’t imagine how your family can cope with this. They can’t, I know that. They just have to accept it. I can’t. I didn’t want to believe it was true. Maybe if I just pushed it to the side it wouldn’t be true, it wouldn’t happen. But it is. Seeing you today made me realize so many things. How precious life really is and how much it really does matter that people know that you love them. Also that life and death isn’t a joke. Obviously it isn’t, but you know get it. Anyways, seeing you today, broke my heart. Seeing you with her, broke my heart. You are such a wonderful person, caring, selfless, funny… and seeing you so helpless was just… awful. So awful. How they manage to see you like this every day… I don’t know. I can’t… I could barely even talk to you. I couldn’t. I was afraid. You’re so fragile. I almost couldn’t say anything. There were so many things I wanted to say to you and while you struggled to reach for my hand to pull me in for a hug, all I managed to mutter out was “I love you.” I could have laid on your chest for hours. Sobbing. You mean so much to so many people. We’re all going to miss you. Always.
